200 paintings in 200 Days Update

I am almost a month into my 200 paintings in 200 days challenge and the process so far has given me insight into several things. 

First week of 200 paintings in 200 days Challenge 

First week of 200 paintings in 200 days Challenge 

First off...I am terribly hard on myself and although I am aware of this and have been consciously working on it, committing to this challenge has kicked the negative voices into high gear. I expected that. The good news is that because they've risen I can really address them on deeper levels. Painting daily brings them to the surface and then helps me quiet them.

Second...sometimes life happens. Working on art daily has made more aware of back and neck issues I've avoided addressing for a few years. The pain slowed me down and while I would start each piece, some days I wasn't able to finish and post them. I fell behind. Then I got a sinus infection and fell behind some more. I learned that is OK. It doesn't mean I failed. It means there will be some weekends where I have an excuse to create extra!

Last...I decided to do this because I wanted to get into the habit of making art a daily practice. So far that has worked. I create daily. The problem is I don't always want to paint. Sometimes I want to sculpt, sometimes I want to art journal.

That poses a problem when I am supposed to be offering each piece for sale. I don't want to sell an art journal page and sometimes I want to spend all day putting my heart and soul into an art doll rather than a painting. But my challenge is called "200 paintings in 200 days" and I said I'd sell each one so I've got to paint something and it's GOTTA sell. Art dolls don't count  and neither do art journal pages (notice the rigidity). 

 So what's happened is that the focus has become more on "can I sell this?" rather than "what do I want to create today?"  That isn't the place I want to be. There isn't any freedom in creating around whether I can sell something. I want to create art to express and share my inner world, to tell stories, to learn and grow and to inspire others. 

This challenge is teaching me so much about myself. I will continue with my challenge and post pics daily on IG but from here on out I will create as my spirit leads me to. If it becomes something I'd like to offer than I will offer it here, on my blog. 

Art from second  and third weeks of 200 paintings in 200 days challenge.

Art from second  and third weeks of 200 paintings in 200 days challenge.